Only my true love could ever accept the karmic invitation
of finding liberation through annihilation.
Only the one who loves me the most could meet here to destroy us both,
to break our hearts, destroy our trust and everything we thought we knew.
To lose the love we were born to find, to close our hearts
and live in the agony of regret.
To know a grief beyond the boundary of possibility.
To destroy ourselves so violently, it would set me free.
Only my soulmate could meet me to annihilate me completely
and be annihilated by me.
Only my soulmate could be the one to touch me deeply enough to break me
definitively from the epitome of my wounded madness.
The promise would be that for your duplicity, the burden of karma
you carried with me, the sum of grief would remain with me, and at the finale
your heart would be free.
I only wish you could have seen me with the Xray eyes we wear in other worlds,
seen through my deception, to the truth you recognised
right from the start.
I wish you could have kept me in your heart.
Only my soulmate could have a love deep enough to abandon me
for the sake of my eternal redemption and leave us to suffer a long human life
Only my soulmate could make me fall so deeply to my knees, and weep with regret
for all the nights and days I'll never spend in his gaze of light.
Only my soulmate could make me wish that death could bring me freedom
from our separation.
Only my soulmate could abandon me so completely to awaken me
to a trauma deep enough to birth a regret strong enough
to make it through eternity, strong enough to put an end to lifetimes
of confusion, betrayal and lost time.
Only you could ever agree to meet me, just for a few divine moments,
before I shattered you and then you shattered me.
I thought you abandoned me, yet now I can see, only my true love could ever agree
to one whole life apart to heal this sickness in my heart.
I miss you every second of this seemingly endless existence.
To honour your memory, I honour my ability to act with integrity
so as never again to find myself without